OMG! OMG! OMG!

So sorry for all of you that have been checking my blog daily looking for updates on the Peanut. I am working two jobs PLUS bringing work home with me so I have just been swamped.

So, before I get to the good stuff I will give you a little update on me. My morning sickness was TERRIBLE the last two weeks, but over the weekend I was fooled into thinking it was gone for good - but it came back with a vengeance last night! So I guess I will be struggling with it for at least another two weeks. Sucky! Hopefully it just remains sparse or just go away all together! As for the rest of my long list of changes...the boobs have leveled off in growing, but not hurting and my acne is OUT OF CONTROL! It is like I am 16 all over again! Other then that I am SLEEPY and short fused and my lower back is starting to hurt daily.

Now for the good stuff.....

We went in for our last ultrasound (for awhile anyway) and I also got a pap and exam. We were expecting to hear the heartbeat and get it on video - but they wound up putting us in a u/s room not equipped with sound.....so we had to settle for seeing the lil peanut. And let me tell you....it looked more like a SNOW MAN this time! We no longer think Peanut is a good desciption! We were BLOWN away how much growth took place in just two weeks! It looks like a lil baby now! We even got to see the lil arms and legs kicking around! It was AMAZING!!!! Whata lil Mini-Fister! Over the next 7 months my womb is going to have hell to pay! So, our doc said all was GREAT and the heartbeat LOOKED strong! So, we are just so totally excited!

I go in at the end of twelve weeks for for my Utlra-Screen to start the detection and testing for Down Syndrom. Better to be safe then sorry!

Anywho - here is our "lil Peanut!"

OMG I am 9weeks Already!

Man I am sprinting to the 3 month mark! I want to pass that milestone sooooo bad! I want to graduate from soar boobs, morning-noon-night sickness and constant fatigue! But most of all I want the peace of mind graduating from the first trimester brings!

It is funny for me to have ppl ask me how the baby is doing....when I am between appts I have no clue. I haven't the faintest idea what to say. I can only judge how I am feeling. And obviously that is from one extreme to the other!

This weekend was pretty awesome. Jerry and I were in our best friends wedding over the weekend and it was a blast! We had a TON of ppl giving us congrats on our lil peanut and asking a million questions. It was really awesome to have so many ppl happy for us and wanting to be part of it all.

I guess I am just giddy because our lil peanut finally graduated from the blob phase on the ticker to looking like an actual human being. Yeah Peanut!

Victory is MINE!

Today I went in to get my prenatal blood work done and luck would have it - I got the F'ing C-Biscuit as my phelotomist again! Now I had sworn up and down that I would ask for someone else if I was to happen upon her again....however I decided against it. There was a long wait and I didn't want to have to wait any longer. So we went into her booth and before I could even sit down I said...."Would you mind using the small needle on me? They tend to work better and not collapse my veins." I got no response. She just went about shuffling the various viles she would be filling and assigning them stickers. Well once she was done, she got the needle pkg out and prepped my vein. She poked it in and -YES - there was no pain. Then she says, "Smaller needles just take longer.." to which my reply was - "I don't mind if you don't." Which seemed to shut her the hell up. Well then she switches gears and decides to compliment me on my necklace. She asked if I had made it, I told her no and it was a gift from my sister.....Then I added - "It is a miscarriage survivor necklace." And this changed her sour-puss attitude all together! HA! She gave me the standard apologies and I switch topic to this pregnancy. She chatted nicely as the viles filled and I was lucky to get out of there with NO PAIN and my vein still intact.....Heck she even wished me luck.

Don't you just love happy endings!

PS - I can't believe I am 8weeks AKA 2MONTHS PREGO TODAY!!!!!!

Video of 2nd Ultrasound 10-10-08

You cannot see the flicker of the heart beat on film and due to the EXCITED Father-To-Be the taping is a little shaky - but you get the point.

1st Bump Pic

Now, I am not sure if you can actually call it a baby bump at 7wks 2Days....but I have definitely lost the ability to suck it in. I will continue to take new pics every Saturday. Stay tuned!

On TOP OF THE WORLD!

Today was such and AMAZING DAY! We went in for our 2nd ultrasound today HOPING to see the heart beat. We were so scared that we were going to get terrible news. But, once the u/s started we SAW the heart beat IMMEDIATELY! Such a strong lil flicker. We were so happy....and then the Dr. turned up the sound and we HEARD the HEART BEAT!!!!!! That strong "wom, wom, wom" noise just sent us through the roof! Something we didn't expect at all! We are measuring at 7weeks 1Day and are right on target. We are SOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!

I'm All Over The Place

Man, the last few days have been a TOTAL roller coaster for me! I am all over the place! I spent the ENTIRE weekend convinced something was wrong because my morning sickness suddenly disappeared only to have it return with vengeance Monday morning and evening. Apparently my m/s is completely dependent upon how early or late I get up! So if I get up very early in the AM I have the pukes...if I sleep past 9am - I'm all good for the day.

The next thing I am so all over the place about is my pregnancy in general. I get excited to tell people and then once I do I FREAK OUT thinking it was a mistake....what if something goes wrong again and I have to tell all these people sike! I just don't (can't) go through all that again. I just can't let go of this fear.

We have our next u/s on Friday to see the heartbeat. I feel in my bones that all will be ok and I have nothing to worry about. But then I keep worrying. And apparently my Hubby is still worried as well. It is just hard. We are positive but still very fearful.

Where is the fast fwd button when you need one?

Exciting News!

I just got an email from one of my girlfriends I have known since Jr. High and she is PREGNANT TOO! Her name is Samantha and she is already a mother to an adorable lil boy - but now her any her Hubby are expecting #2! She is about 12weeks along and due hopefully some time around my b-day in April. Whata cool thing! I've always wanted to be prego with a pal....too bad she lives so far away! Here is a pic of here in I in highschool...what memories!

If my inner monologue could just give me a break

I would be a much happier camper. It seems I am living 90% of my life in my head lately. All the what if's are driving my nutso! And the paranoia is getting to me as well. Tomorrow is a monumental day for us. I am exactly 6weeks today. If I can surpass 6wks 1Day I think I will be much happier person! For those of you that have no clue why - 6wks 1Day is the length of our last pregnancy. So, for this pregnancy it serves as a mile stone for us. On Friday we have another appt to hopefully see the heartbeat. I am looking forward to it, but I am also scared out of my mind that nothing will be there. I don't think I will be able to breath or not worry until we HEAR the heartbeat. I want so badly just to fast fwd to that moment! I think after that I will just be able to let all this stress go and just enjoy being pregnant! If that is even possible - lol

Another new symptom has reared its head.....SCARY ASS VIVID DREAMS! I am not talking about the type where you forget your baby in the car on a 110 degree day or you dream that you give birth to a maget baby. I am talking horror movie type dreams that are so detailed and unforgettable that I wake up ina cold sweat or fear and terror! Wes Craven ain't got nuttin on my psyche! Every time I go to sleep it is a new thriller that I would rather skip! What the F is wrong with me. I would rather have the skinless baby dreams!!!!

Very Emo Today

I had a rough ride on the basin bus this morning and I can't seem to get my emo's in control. Life is not easy right now and I am finding it extremely difficult not to stress. I hope this day is an easy one, my heart is already toooo heavy to deal with more.

Am I Just Being Paranoid?

So this morning I woke up and I felt like something was just not right. I was crampy like I was going to get my visit from AF and my boobs didn't hurt as much as they have been and my morning sickness has seemed to chill out over the last few days. I questioned whether or not to call the doc and ask for more hCG's or if I should just chill out. As I went to ask my Hubby in the car if I was being paranoid - I gagged midsentence, he laughed and told me I was!!! So, I tried dinking water to see if that would help the cramps and it did some what. And my MS did rear its ugly head on the way to work this morning and while at work. So, I guess I am just being toooo parinoid. I guess I am just expecting the worse since I am used to it. I am under so much financial stress right now that I am losing my mind. There are only two things in the world I want right now. A job that pays enough and a full term pregnancy! Is that too much to ask?